Light

So here I was coming from my church at night after meeting with a client & needing to get to our crisis pregnancy center only 2 blocks away. I used to run these streets, I have no fear of them what so ever. I have no problem walking them at any time. This night in particular I was so lost in thought that I didn't realize at first that the street I was walking down all the street lights were blown. There is another church on that street & the front lights were on so I stopped to readjust everything I was carrying & realized I was in complete darkness. I heard men's voices behind me, joking & laughing about an upcoming party---college kids. I waited because I wanted them to walk by me & I would be behind them----I never liked anyone walking behind me. They pass, I take a drink of water & think about the work I need to do at the center & trek on.

Still having no fear at all of the darkness, I go to turn the corner & BAM I felt fear, an overwhelming need to get out of this place.....I was alone. I have never felt fear on these streets---ever. Immediately I found myself in prayer & then also realized my feet were not moving!!! I had to "tell" my feet to move. I started walking & I knew I was not alone. I went to cross over to the street I needed to get to---and right there--right there---he was right there---standing at the end of the alley....big guy, light blue jeans & light grey or white hooded sweat jacket--big guy--smoking a cigarette....pitch black on the street--but I could see him....the light from the pregnancy center was on & it was the only light on the street & it lit up where he was standing!! Like I said before I have never felt fear here---unsaved or saved....and my heart was pounding in my throat, pulsing in my ears, I could feel my breath getting panicky, my lips dry, tears welled in my eyes & my legs felt like rubber, I could not move fast enough....he moved out a little from the alley ---he noticed me....I jay walked across the street before I even knew I was doing it & I heard the voice plain as day "faster" the voice said. I turned (and even though I thought I was moving at quite a fast pace-----I was not moving---do you know what I mean?) and he was there behind me---not too close....he was saying "Excuse me miss, excuse me do you have...." I didn't hear anything else, I was in the parking lot of the pregnancy center & people were there, getting in and out of cars, there were some outside who worked in the temp agency inside, they were on a break, smoking and talking and laughing---there was LIGHT, light from the building, the next street, in the parking lot---and the man he didn't come any further.....so when I hear (Psalm 119:105): "Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light for my path."---It has all new meaning for me---I prayed all the way through this event--I heard that voice say "faster" and no one can tell me any different....No one can tell me He didn't get me to that parking lot right on time---No one can tell me that the light come from the pregnancy center would be my guide & also illuminate what struck that immediate fear in me---no one and nothing. He was a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.....